Sunday, December 22, 2013


Today I learned that my Grandma's health is deteriorating. I went home to BC in November and was able to spend quality time with her, but even though I saw her then, after a lung cancer diagnosis and a stroke, it still comes as a shock to hear that she isn't doing well.

Gram and I at my cousin's wedding in 2011

Today I also learned that a child I knew, a child I held and hugged, a little girl with beautiful bright eyes and a huge joyful smile, died in a tragic motorcycle accident. Rahma was six or seven years old and had a loving and caring foster mother and a foster sister and brother. All three children used to live at Cradle of Love Baby Home, where I volunteered in Tanzania in 2010-2011. Their mother is the nurse at the baby home. And my heart just breaks for her and her family, and their devastating loss.

Rahma playing at Cradle before bed in Oct. 2010

Today I realize anew how unfair life is, and I long for heaven more than ever.

Today Christmas means so much more to me. In just a few days we will celebrate the birth of the King who destroyed evil's grip on this world, and who will one day return here to bring an end, forever, to pain and suffering.

And today I am grateful for His gift, and that I can trust Him in all things.


Rahma, you will be missed by many. Rest in peace now until that day to come when He will wake you again.

Grandma, my thoughts and prayers are with you every second. I love you so much!


  1. It's always sad to see the effects of sin in the world and realize just how messed up things are. I'm so glad that we have a new world to look forward to, but it doesn't take away the pain we feel now.

  2. Sharing in your hope of Heaven. Praying for your Grandma, your family, your sad heart and Bathilda and her family too. A sad loss indeed of a precious young girl. I too, was blessed to meet and hug her. Heaven will be so sweet. <3

  3. I'm sorry that you are going through so much pain right now Ali. I think about you all a lot these days. Despite everything, I hope you have a Merry Christmas and remember that there is still good in the world even when it seems otherwise. xoxo

  4. I am so sorry to hear about your Grandmother's health. But a long life well lived offers a peace when that earthly life must come to an end. i'm still struggling with the loss of Rahma's life at such a young age. Yes. it all is "unfair".

  5. Thank you all for your kind words. They mean a lot to me. Shae, I also am struggling with Rahma's death. All death and suffering is very sad, but it just seems so much more sad when it is an accidental death of a child, something you could never prepare yourself for or imagine would happen.

  6. Such a sad but sweet post Ali. So sorry for all the hardships right now. I'm always here for you. Love you!

  7. I'm so sorry for the news you've been given about those you love.